I need to learn how to build a fire so when Jerod is not home I can do it myself. It'll be very pioneer women. Imagine, people had to do this all the time if they wanted heat. It didn't just get pumped into their house. Man, I'm thankful I live in 2010!!
Where does my value lie? Sure isn't in out heat pump. Or our ability to spend money on whatever I want, because Jerod and I don't have $2,000 laying around to replace the unit again.
All I can seem to do right now is laugh. I'm confident God has even this under control. But I still struggle. My idea of God providing looks different, I won't lie. Lord, can we win the $23 million lottery? Can we inherit $20,000? In my mind I see all we could do with that money, pay of the last ac unit, pay off Jerod's student loans, have more than $500 in savings. But I see my own heart yet again. I'm under the misconception that money will satisfy me. If we had this or that, or didn't have to worry about money-- THEN I would be satisfied.
I'm broken over the state of my own heart. God is not limited by money! I'm humbled by that truth! We have what we need right now and no more.
Well I'm off to pack. J and I are going to the OBX to visit with his dad and Barbara. Have a lot to do!
dmj.
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