God's {faithfulness}

But if we hope for what we do not have, we wait for it patiently -Romans 8:25

Was looking through my list of drafts, things I've never posted. Sometimes I use blogger as a way to put things I am thinking down with no intention of actually posting them. As I was looking through I saw that I saved the verse in bold above. And it is VERY fitting for my life right now. I am again in a season of waiting.

This season of waiting has to do with nursing school at Wake Tech. I am an alternate for the spring class. I received the letter in the mail two weeks ago. I cried when I showed it to Jerod because I feel one step closer to what I want to do but not quite there! Orientation was this past Friday from 1pm-5pm. I am number 30 on the alternate list and last semester they accepted 35 alternates.

Jerod and I were talking about when we have children, we'd like to give them all their options. I had no idea NC had great RN programs at their community colleges. I had no idea what it looked like to transfer to another school, I had no idea there was anything outside of a 4 year university and I had no idea how to support myself enough to purse the degree I wanted.

But now as I wait I'm reminded of this verse in James. You want something but don't get it. You kill and covet, but you cannot have what you want. You quarrel and fight. You do not have, because you do not ask God. James 4:2. For the longest time I just went around desiring to pursue nursing. But even after I set my mind to start pursuing it, I never sat down and asked God. I just assumed He knew. Which is true. God does know the desires of our heart. But like little children (Matthew 18:13), we are to be totally dependent on God. Children depend on their parents, their parents love them and provide for them.

I am encouraged by the following verses in Romans.

Romans 8: 26-28

Likewise the Spirit helps us in our weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit itself intercedes for us with groanings too deep for words. And he who searches hearts knows what is the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints according to the will or God. And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to His purpose.

I have to submit this desire to God. No matter what, He'll do what is ultimately best for me and what will bring Him the most glory. I know God always shows up and whether God grants me favor in this area by me getting into nursing this semester, or something else, I know and trust God is faithful-- Psalm 33:4-- The word of the LORD is upright, all His work is done in faithfulness.

Hope this brings encouragement. Our God is faithful! He promises that all things will work out for God for those who are called according to His purpose. Do you believe that? I do. I see His faithfulness in my life. Romans 5:8 reminds us-- but God who shows His love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

dmj.